I have removed this post because it isn't doing me or anyone else any good. Those of you that were meant to read it have done so; it is what it is. Life isn't meant to remain stagnant; it is ever-flowing.
The anger and irritation of it dragging on just isn't worth it to me. It is just detaining me from achieving other things. Better things =)
I still love you all very much! I find it truly amazing that when I need you all, you are there, no matter what it is. It is most definitely reciprocated. I know the best people in the world.
I still want an apology, but I doubt I'll ever get one. I'll come to terms with that eventually too.
In the meantime, I'm going to go write about love and laughter. After all, not everything needs to be dark and twisty.
<3
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Here I am, all teary-eyed again. I know just how you feel, hon. I can empathize with this a little more than I prefer. I know it's hard to work through the emotions, but you'll get there. I believe that. Sometimes our friendships don't work out the way we want them to, and it hurts like hell. You know we love you. I wish we lived close enough to get together for a drink or something. (Non-alcoholic, of course.) I could use some girl time.
ReplyDeleteI could use some girl time too. Adam tries but gets kinda weirded out when I ask about hair do's LOL Now I do it just to watch him squirm.
ReplyDeleteYou are all so amazing. I apologize to you and you turn around and try to comfort me. It makes it that much more obvious about how badly I've mucked this up.
Thank you. It isn't much but thank you.
Well with ASD I'm bad at social skills... so I can't say much on this topic.
ReplyDeleteHowever, its been my experience that it's through hard times similar to these that we actually learn who our real friends are. In that way, maybe we can find some optimistic feelings from a seemingly pessimistic situation.
If there's ever anything I can do to help either of you out, just let me know; I'll always do my best.
Love you both <3
You've made yet another smart decision.
ReplyDelete"After all, not everything needs to be dark and twisty."
Thats what my last girlfriend was about, lets just say it was a dark, emo. relationship that didn't end so well =\
<3 you Nicki, your a strong smart woman and you are able to overcome difficult obstacles in your life which make you who you are and i envy you for that =)
By the way, i don't have a blogger account so if your still wondering who this is, its abdul =D
P.S: hows that 2 hour run workin for you, eh? =P
I figured out who it was because that is your MSN name silly butt.
ReplyDeleteBefore you give me full credit, I pull strength from all of my people closest to me; that includes you.
I don't run for 2 hours I run for 2 miles. You are my two-hour-I'm-gonna-be-sick-because-I-can-no-longer-feel-my-body person. <3
I love you too!
P.S. I thought ex-girlfriend turned un-emo after you two broke up?
Brand,
ReplyDeleteI suck at social skills too. Or so I've been told the majority of my life, people have a tendency to be put off because of my "loud" personality. That is why the friends I do have I cherish; they understand me and love me no matter how obnoxious I get.
I'm always optimistic, but at the same time I am realistic. Some people are meant to show you a path in life then leave, others are meant to stay forever =) You are in my heart forever <3
I'm getting this strong urge to gather 'round the bonfire and sing "Kumbaya." Somebody hold me back.
ReplyDeleteO WTH Kris...
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